Numerous times throughout my life I have been asked to describe myself in one word. Many of those times I struggled to pinpoint a specific word that sums me up as a person. Sadly tonight I know the answer and its a humbling one at that.
It took me years to come up with a legitimate answer mainly because of my own denial. Growing up I would always respond with hollow answers such as athlete, football player or fisherman. While all these answers described me, none of them told my true story. They were simply masks concealing my true identity. Now that I have discovered my true self, I almost wish I was still living in the dark.
Although this isn’t the word I envisioned while scavenging my brain for answers, it fits more perfectly than Cinderella’s slipper. Time and time again I’ve lived up to the description by blatantly disregarding God’s will. It seems as though the harder I try the more miserably I fail. This brings me great sorrow and an immense sense of guilt in the aftermath of my transgressions. My only hope is that my failure may bring peace to someone who may be tangling with the same demons. I pray that me opening up about my issues brings comfort to another who thinks they’re alone.
For the longest time I believed the lies that there was something wrong with me and that I was broken beyond repair. Thankfully I couldn’t have been more wrong. After spending years trying in vain to correct myself, I found myself on the verge of giving up. It wasn’t until I reached rock bottom, the lowest of lows, that I realized a simple truth about my Lord and Savior. Jesus Christ was crucified and resurrected to save sinners!
He didn’t come to save a perfect people. He came to bring hope to the hopeless and salvation to the sinners. This world can tear you apart if you let it. There is temptation around every corner and a devil who reminds you of all the times you’ve tried and failed. So keep your head up and your chin held high because even though you’re a SINNER like me you have a Savior like JESUS.
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